my life~

haha...

see..do u ever see

this boy in the picture?

do u know him???

hikhikhik~

capix..capix...

haha..

nuts may be i am right now..

make fun of my self..

1 by 1 by 1 day pass...

i still feel the same..

even trough i think i had

make many changes 2 my self..

create new interest, make new hope

develop new skill...

and the result..??

just like the old capix like old day..

till when i must be this way?? i want to get from this

throw it away..and create new path that i love to live in..

20 julai 2010.....

just like i am been destined 2 have a life like this... because since i am enter the high school i can't get away from get nearing a gurl... and they also always want 2 depends on me like no one else they can trust... but in the mean times i also been tortured in deep of my hearth... sometimes i feel like i want to be a really bad person that treat gurl like rubbish..but still i can't do that because i know gurl is weak.. i have sympathy to them...who weak n don't have any ability 2 fight back..... i always treat them wise.. help at any cos without thinking anything that i get from them but just like always i been treat badly because mybe they see me as a weak guys that do anything they ask and they more like someone that bad, tough, and never follow what they want exactly....

why????

i'm does't know which type of person i should be..

when i'm been good..there is something wrong happen...

when i'm been bad..there are also something wrong happen..

been good can't,been bad also can't???

arghh...

i'm very2 confusing right now.....(@..@)

what the hell will going 2 happen 2 me!!!

somebody help me deal with this...

confuse..confuse..confuse..coNFUSE!!!!

what is i need 2 do much better 2 live happly ever

after in this world????????

today is may bad day...

my motorcyle fell at infront bata shop (morning) and car workshop (evening)...

it's making me shame..arghhh..

the reason it fall??

accidently fell it self..

never happen before...hmm..

totally shame....

difrent between me and my friends...

today i heard many kind of story

about my friends...a felt i little bit jelous...

i don't know about my appearance..

i think i'm such a good person,lees do bad things,

but they....mybe that bad side and appearance

make gurl see they are "macho"??

why i think like this?

they have gurl like them, such as asking their names,

they phone number,want to know them,want to get near,

not 1 but several gurl...

for me..

i'm mybe not macho enough for the gurls outhere...?

they may just look down at me & think i'm mybe just simple person

that they just can get anywere & does't have valueble thing that

can make they proud..maybe...

that's why i usually think i may not enough

to compete with them..

the other's thing is they like making fun & joke of me..

arghh...i'm little bit angry and shame..

becouse the joke that they make is from my mistake..

shame mistake..but they throw out among my sibling,

my little brother's friends..they just know lough..

but they does't even know what i feel...

shame u know..ruins my dignity...and it

make people does't respect me,& think difrent about me...

but this is friends..i just accept what they make

and hopes someday they realise what they doing....

30/5/2010

me...

muhammad shafik bin shari...

oldest among my 3 siblings...

i'm carried many responbility,it's became more

when my father past away....almost 7 years...

now..after felt many things,sadness,happiness,

doing sins,doing good thing...

i know what the best 4 myself..

4 those out there may thinks difrent,

but i have choose this path...

and i will go trough with all my guts..

i know i'm not perfect person,

but i will try my best,

i will put this way...

i accept my failure came from

the sins i had done before..

and my succes as the god

blessing 4 me...

AFter brAkEup uNTill ~ tOdaY..29/5/2010

after hearing the reason..i make my mind to accept the break with her..

exactly i were waiting 4 this becouse she does't treat me as her boyfriends after what i done 4 her...but still i wish her the best with her boyfriends that she had right after the day we clash......

the day past by and i just can watch people around me live happines...

i still have smile..but deep in my heart..totally hurt..

juz imagine what now my heart look??

after been crush..crush..crush..and crush!!!

how many more i can deal with???

during the day past by..i'm being accompanied by facebook...

i just add friends..disturbing old friends..make joke..make them happy..

cheers them up...untill one day...

i meet this gurl...

it's starting just by i'm thanks her 4 approving me to be her friends..

then it getting accited when we starting 2 know each others..

now i take her as my foster sister...

she offer me becouse she wants mate..to accompany her..

that time also i want the exactly what she wants...

i love her ...i want to cheer her up..help her when needed..

i hope i can do all i wishes..

now i had someone 4 me to love..mybe she's not my girlfriends..

but she my sister..that just enough 4 me..

i like 2 stay this way..i'm no need a girlfriends to go trough

this world..it's just a burden 4 me..i think..

i may say i have 2 accomplished my responbility to my family..

then just accept what will happen 2 me...

today i still like this..had happy moments with my new sister

go out with friends, helping mom's at home, do what my uncle ask me..

lough with frends..i know mybe this just a small part of my heart

thats survive from being crush..but hope it will be this way 4ever...

akuska....(aku suke)

it's means..

aku sentiasa suke dlm apa jua

kerna aku akn trus trsenyum,

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